But as always God is faithful and He uses the Holy Spirit to prod me and grab my attention. He did this just this past weekend when I was really struggling with our situation. I was listening to someone speak and they said something about they sometimes get ahead of themselves and think God is leading, but they realize they have taken the matter into their own hands. Insert poking and prodding from the Holy Spirit here because all of a sudden everything in me knew this was exactly what I was doing. I was trying to get ahead of God and figure out the answers to my prayers and situation before He was providing them. I've been praying for answers and a clear sign about our situation and telling God I was waiting, but then on my own I was looking very hard to find my own answers. God really used the Holy Spirit in that moment to grab hold of me and get my attention. I was so convicted that I started praying right there. I asked for forgiveness for saying I was giving the situation to God, but then trying to find answers on my own. I asked for forgiveness for the ways I have judged the situation and tried to force my opinion on it. I prayed that God would help me get out of my own way so that He could work and He could truly lead because that is what I and we truly want for the outcome of this situation. We want God to lead us, to show us His direction for us, and to make it clear. I had been so eager for an answer I was trying to force it. God met me in that moment and gave me this verse to cling to. He has it on auto repeat in my mind and there is no doubt from me that God placed it there.
The whole verse is “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Psalm 46:10 (ESV)
I know it is from God because it has brought me such peace about the situation. It has opened my eyes and I can see that I truly need to follow this verse and let God work. So now I sit and wait knowing that God is in control and I feel His peace about our situation. I know He is at work and I know in His timing and according to His plans He will let us know what to do. I truly know that now, without a doubt and I am happy to BE STILL.